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[there's a moment where the look on joshua's face is almost... wryly fond.]

Of course you didn't.

[it doesn't last long before he looks away to look up into the distance of the sky of Traverse Town]

There's an old saying that says every star in the sky is one. Another world. And when a star goes out... [he tilts his head a bit, still staring at the sky] It's very poetic. That there's a little bit more darkness every time a world "falls".

[THIS ANSWERS NOTHING]

Uh...huh.

[he's still not really following, unsurprisingly. ffs josh get to the point]

What does that have to do with us? With this place?

[he sighs and looks to the ground, more tired than annoyed]

I'm trying to get you to understand what I'm about to say. This world-- the version of it that isn't my dream-- is a place that comes into existence to harbor people from worlds who have been lost.

(Worlds who have been lost...?)

[ it takes him a minute to go over this information... ]

Wait, so—you don't mean...Shibuya...

I'm aware you won't believe it, coming from me-- [it's abrupt, a bit defensive] but I did what I could. [he shrugs one shoulder like he's not affected, even though his movements are half-aborted and obviously uncomfortable in a way joshua isn't usually]

[ it's josh's unnerving tone that makes it clear he's not lying. neku knows how much josh actually cares about shibuya, despite being ready to wipe it out during the game. ]

But... Shiki, Beat, Rhyme—everyone in Shibuya—what happened to them?

I did what I could. [that's a repeat.] Like I said, this world... this town only appears when someone is in need of shelter. This version was made from my dreams, but the point stands. Shibuya's fall came along with the fall of everyone in it. [and. this is where it gets a bit embarrassing, doesn't it, and he brushes some hair out of his face] Normally, this would mean the people fading altogether, but I do have a certain amount of power over souls. You... alongside the three you mentioned. It's a bit of a complicated concept, but I managed to gather up what I could of you by the last remnant of your dreams as they were back in the Game. When I tried to find you refuge, this [he gestures vaguely at the town] is what answered my call. Since it's a world where dreams take bodily forms... [a beat] I've already said it's a complicated concept, but the long of it is I thought I could at least make you four whole again through this place.

[THINGS THAT WOULD BE EMBARRASSING TO PAST JOSHUA: ADMITTING HE KIND OF CARES FOR NEKU AND HIS FRIENDS. but he brushes past it now, looking at neku critically]

I'd been making progress, but nothing like... Well. You're fully whole, Neku. You can't understand how surprising that is for me right now.

...

I'm honored. I didn't think you cared.

[he's joking, of course, in spite of the grim circumstances. he just knows that joshua would normally never admit to something like this, so for him to be able to openly say as much to neku... he guesses it wasn't just him who's changed.

he still can't fully wrap his head around the concept the way joshua can—because of course—but even he realizes the gravity of the situation. joshua did not let shibuya die. could not let shibuya die. not after everything they've been through.]

[there's a moment where joshua tenses like he's about to go defensive before he relaxes. he's not used to his feelings being spelled out so bluntly even when he's the one doing it, but he just shrugs.]

I suppose I can't blame you. It's not like I made it obvious. [he doesn't seem to realize neku's joking, too caught up in his own thoughts ... until he adds:] But you really should be flattered.

[and neku doesn't quite get that his joke went over josh's head.]

That you decided I was worth saving?

Well, when you put it like that ... You should've figured that out a long time ago, so I guess not.

[enjoy those feels while they lasted, neku.]

Hm.

[ you know what, he's just gonna shrug that one off. feelings with josh??? that's a little much for the current situation... ]

So... what benefits do I get, being the "real me"?

[wryly;]

A fully realized personality? [he gestures vaguely to all of traverse town] Something about those travelers showing up kick started your growth, so you all seemed a lot more like your ... post-Game selves, I suppose I could call it. But I was a lot more concerned with keeping you around than examining every aspect of what I brought with me.

[and because this is apparently honesty hour, he looks at neku seriously]

I can't say I could be certain I knew you well enough to notice all the differences. [a beat] I'm only kind of omniscient, you know.

[it's. it's a joke. to lighten the gay.]

Edited (bitch pick the right icon) 2017-10-29 04:31 (UTC)

[it's weird enough that neku's had to reflect on his own personal growth since starting the reapers' game... it's even weirder to try and consider what that must've looked like to someone else who didn't have a few into his head. whatever "idealized" version of neku that joshua must have dreamed up...

...he briefly wonders what joshua thought that'd be like, but decides that some things are better left unaddressed.]

Good thing I'll never know what kind of a job you did, since I'm actually here.

[Joshua gives a bit of an annoyed look at that]

"What kind of job"...?

[but he just shrugs it off because fuck explaining the intricacies of how this works and how he didn't make a dream Neku because "you can't make people, Neku"]

Well, whatever. Should I take that to mean most of your questions are answered?

[look how would he know? he's not the one with the god powers.

but joshua's response gives him pause. he kind of figures that, should there be anything else he wants to ask, josh would probably answer in a way that doesn't make sense to him anyway. still... there's one thing, he guesses, is kind of the elephant in the room right now.]

...How do we get Shibuya back?

... If I knew that, do you really think I'd be here?

[there's a trace of real bitterness there, but he's mostly keeping it deadpan. he has a general gist idea, but...]

World order is way out of your jurisdiction, Neku. Just think of it as an extended vacation.

[it's out of joshua's too, is what he doesn't say out loud]

[ a complaint about being tired of getting thrown from one strange place to another is resting on his tongue, but joshua's tone prompts him to swallow it back down. it's a sore spot for both of them... josh even more so, honestly. ]

(. . . Fair enough.)

[ so. new subject, then. ]

The other two you mentioned—the... world travelers. What were they doing here?

Sora and Riku. [ because he's got to be pedantic about this ] Though I don't believe you ever actually met Riku personally. Or, well, the dream-you, if you'd prefer.

[ this neku might be whole, but the difference isn't as distinct as neku probably believes it is. still. josh decides to break character on himself and answer neku's question: ]

They were in the middle of a test of some sort. And... I believe something-- or rather, someone-- was interfering with it, but hopefully things worked themselves out for them. I didn't exactly get a status update after they left.

[ it's probably weird to hear josh casually talk about worrying about other people's circumstances, and yet ]

[ and he's fast to pick up on that. is it because they're out of familiar territory, where he doesn't have as much control as he usually does? or... did he, like neku, find a new appreciation for other people and the world around them?

like hell he's gonna ask directly, though, even with as candid as josh is being with him right now. so, a nonchalant tone is what he decides to go with instead. ]

Huh. You using the word "hopefully" without being sarcastic? Maybe I'm the one that's dreaming.

(I'd ask you to pinch me, but since it's you we're talking about... yeah, no.)

[ there's something in Neku's nonchalant snark that's... nostalgic, for joshua. it's not like the dream didn't have any, but.

because of that, joshua's smile at that is less mocking smirk and more indulgent than he intends it to be... though it doesn't change his dialogue any. ]

Wow, Neku. I had no idea you dreamed of me. I'm truly flattered. [ his horrible words said, joshua looks up into the distance ] But I assure you, this isn't one of your fantasies. Also, I would duck if I were you.

[ for his part, too, neku is actually relieved to hear joshua shoot back with one of those quips that's meant to make his skin crawl. even with this weird sentimental streak josh has going on right now... well, he's still him. the creases on neku's forehead as his eyebrows come together are more of a reflex than an active reaction, because josh's words don't necessarily bother him, per se... it's just what he's used to doing? weird.

he doesn't get the chance to ponder on that for too long, though, because warnings take precedence over banter. ]

—?!

[ he knows better than to question a suggestion like that at this point, so duck he does. ]

[ and it's a good thing he listens, because a dream eater (a bat) barely misses swooping in an attack where neku's head was a second ago. it... completely ignores joshua even as he stands there, instead trying once more to swoop at neku. ]

I suppose that answers my question as to whether the Dream Eaters would target you or not.

[ joshua is, of course, infuriatingly calm about this. is he going to help at any point in time? sure. but-- ]

Neku, this is a dream. You're not limited to the constraints of reality. You may want to take advantage of that.

[ he could also just teach neku how to flowmotion ]

[ he's not really surprised that the dream eaters ignore josh, but his logic isn't quite on the mark. he thinks it's more unfair composer advantages than joshua being the owner of the dream. as he swats at the bat, he just sounds annoyed. ]

What, like—imagining it going "poof"?

[ stop being an asshole for once please ]

If it was that easy, I'd have gotten rid of them a long time ago. Try to at least pay attention.

[ joshua has power over this traverse town, still, of course-- it's his dream-- but his grasp on outside forces has been... tenuous, at best. and if he could've erased that dream eater for them instead of having to rely on sora and riku back then-- regardless. he's a bit annoyed at neku's comment, even though he absolutely deserves it for trying to teach him a lesson in the middle of a bat attack. like an asshole. ]

I'm speaking of the limitations on yourself. But if you don't think you can figure it out, we can just go.

[ it's both an asshole taunt and legitimate-- he's not really going to risk neku (real, living, whole) for a lesson, but he's also not too worried about neku being done in by a komory bat. of all things. ]

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